Welcome to show >;)

http://youtu.be/JrlnRZ-rwNo

^Click link and listen while reading

Now's the time, get in line, don't be afraid tonight
We're gonna take you high, before you realize
'Round and 'round you'll go, up and down, never slow
Feel the excitement grow, oh
This is where you let go

Hands high like a roller coaster
This love is taking over
Take us higher here we go
Oh, oh, oh
Welcome to the show
Gravity we're defying
'Cause we were made for flying
We're about to lose control
Welcome to the show

Oh, oh, we're on a mission nothing, nothing, can stand in our way
Oh, oh, we don't need permission
We're gonna rise up and we'll be the change
Oh, oh, hear us on your stereo
Oh, oh, we're about to lose control
Oh, oh, everybody knows
Oh, oh, this is where you let go

Hands high like a roller coaster
This love is taking over
Take us higher here we go
Oh, oh, oh
Welcome to the show
Gravity we're defying
'Cause we were made for flying
We're about to lose control
Welcome to the show

And put your hands u-u-up
We're gonna have some f-u-u-n
We've only just beg-u-u-n
And it's too late to r-u-un, you can't run
So put 'em u-u-up
We're gonna have some f-u-u-n
Turn up the bass let it b-u-u-mp
We've only just begun, and you can't run

Hands high like a roller coaster
This love is taking over
Take us higher here we go
Oh, oh, oh
Welcome to the show
Gravity we're defying
'Cause we were made for flying
We're about to lose control
Welcome to the show(2x)

We're gonna have some f-u-u-n
Turn u the bass let it b-u-u-mp
We've only just begun, and you can't run

[| From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/b/britt-nicole-lyrics/welcome-to-the-show-lyrics.html |]

Oops I did it again :/

I dont know why God decided to give me, me of all people a heart.

I dont use it for good, only for pain and problems and to tear people's emotions apart. 

Im trying to make things work and not let my emotional problems and feeling get in the way.

Im not saying im trying to get rid of you but I dont think you should stay.

Get out while you can! Tell everyone about the dangers of me.

For im a terrible person and a fake can't you see?!

I want so much and give so little.

But Im stuck between how I feel for you and how I feel for myself, Im somewhere in the middle. 

I love you dont get me wrong, and your are so amazing and so sweet. 

But our timing became terrible and paths shouldn't meet. 

I want to be your friend, no YOUR BEST FRIEND.

But us a couple I think needs to come to an end.

Ive thought long and hard about this and tried to keep my emotions locked shut.

But by doing this Ive left many empty beer bottles on floor and my wrists have been cut. 

Im saying im sorry now, Im just in no shape or form able to be in a commited long term relationship.

But our journey was so much fun together. And you were my favorite trip <3 

Mommy's little angel

*this is taking me alot of guts to say..well right..  But for all you that dont know... I dont live with my mom... She abandoned me and my sister... I havent seen her in years.. She was a drug addict and an alcoholic and as well as abusive to me and my sister.. But as Im growing up now, I just wanna let the past go... I want to start over.. I want my mom back..And after all the shit that she has done to me Im willing to let it go cause I miss her so much.. I just wanna know where she is and if she is ok and if she has atleast thought of me once*

(im sitting at my computer desk crying right now as I type this)

Im the little girl you used to give kisses to at night.

But in the morning our mouths were only used to fight.

A slap to the face, or a punch to my guts,

to say I want you back you'd think that Im nuts.

Do you think about me as much as I think of you?

Do you recall all our good memories and the things we used to do? 

Did you even try to keep me? Did you ever really care?

How do you think I feel when I look for your smile and  know it wont be there.

 When I close my eyes all I see is your angry face.

But when I open them Im in a better place.

I dont wanna talk to you, I just wanna know your ok.

And if you have left this earth, Just know I wish you've couldve stayed.

You lied, you cheated, you beat and decieved me

But I think I discovered that you never trully loved me. 

Idk what the purpose of this post was, I guess just to vent.

But mom you left my heart with crack and the worlds biggest dent.

And you can see my heart beating

I can feel it... 

Something bad is about to happen.

Im about to make something completely avoidable happen. 

Drama, Pain, a mistake. 

Though I cant help it if it's the way I feel. 

My life is a ticking time bomb and patience is lighting the wick.

I tried to make things work but I just dont think I can do it anymore.

I love you dont get me wrong and I know you tried to make me happy,

but Im not.

Atleast not anymore.. 

or so I think.

Im missing something,

a piece of me.....

I need to be somewhere and do something.

I need a CHANGE of SCENERY.

Your gonna be pissed off with me

your gonna be hurt

your possibly gonna hate  me.

But im hurting too

and im upset and

I hate myself too..

Just something is gonna happen

and this is my warning. 

I just dont know what and when though.

Caterpilla in the tree how you wonder who you'll be

I feel like a caterpillar still trapped in its' cocoon stuggling to get out. 

Im trapped and tired of being confined in this small space, yet I try not to pout.

Im ready to turn into a butterfly and leave my old life behind.

Im tired of being hidden, it's my turn to shine.

Im ready to turn into something beautiful, I'm ready to soar above all the rest

I want everyone to see my bright colors that  are all along my chest. 

Im sorry I cant be perfect

You will never be proud of me, I can guarantee you that for a fact. 

For you don't like they way I dress and you don't like the way I act.

I cant be your perfect child, for Im not as smart as you want me to be.

But I like the way I am, and thats something you'll never see. 

I may not be smart and I may not be wise, 

But Im gonna live my life the way I want to and keep it free from all your lies.

Im tired of trying to be someone Im not for you.

But being my parents I know you wont see me through.

You can say Im disappointed in you

just know I feel the same way too.

Its hard growing up in this day and age, most of us are misunderstood.

But if we are as bad as you think we are, we will never do as we should.

You will never hang my work up on the fridge nor tell your friends about the good that i've done.

Yet I can live my life just fine, knowing that Im not your number one.

Sorry I cant be the child you've always wanted, you cant always get what you want.

But my  independence is nothing to you, and something you will never vaunt.

:) Candy Gram

To: Marty

I just remembered the candy gram you sent me. Your was sweet and true.. You told me exactly how you felt. I on the other hand just said Happy Holidays... 

But little do you know, I have a hard time telling people what I have to say by writing it.

Im better with talking...But idk..here's my redo

You're funny, you're cute, your're sweet, you're nice, you're a dork <3, you're talented, you're amazing, but most of all you're yourself. Your true to yourself and others. And thats hard to find in a guy. So Im soo happy and lucky that I have you. Never in a million bagillion years would I have ever thought of dating you. But Im soo happy we are. You make me laugh, happy, smile, and feel so great inside. I love spending time with you and being with you. I LOVE having YOU in my life. :) This is how I feel only after a month of dating you, but Im looking forward for more months to come. I miss you already

xoxoxo

- Marlee :P  

Ps: Merry Christmas

Damnation

Im the home wrecker, Im the problem, Im the reason why my grandma cries.

Im the theif, Im the mistake, Im the reason why my life is filled with lies.

I committed assault, I almost killed someone, I almost got into a fight.

I cut, I screamed, I hid, I ran. I packed my bags and escaped into the night.

I smile, I laugh, I dream, I fall.

I see the stars and try to count them all.

Im not used to being happy, I may act like it but Im not.

I like to feel sad and apathetic, but if I am I get caught.

My friends try to make me happy, but if they heard my story they would probably  stop.

Yet when Im  at the bottom they try to put me on the top.

I dont have the highest self-esteem, I dont always have a clue.

And this may all sound stupid, but boy if you only knew.

I fight, I stand, I live, I survive.

And for the first time in my life I've never felt so alive. 

I don't give a damn as to what people think.

For I dont have to answer questions if I smoke or if I drink.

I know what Ive done, and I know what Ive said.

But if life was about living with fear and regret aren't we better off dead?

Let us raise a glass to the misunderstood who came before us, for they chased after the sun.

And for the rest of us misunderstood children, are mission has just begun.

If today was your last day

I scream at the tops of my lungs hoping someone can hear me.

I pull out my hair and bang my head and wonder what life would be

With out me there would be no drama no problems no lies no pain

In the end I lose but you have something to gain.

Imagine I'm gone, I took my life and now it's in the grim reapers possession.

Im gone with no warning and there's no time for a reconciliation.

As you put your make up on you see a smudge on the mirror .

You wipe it clean so you can see clearer.

But what do you see, are you proud of what you've done?

Do you think about all the millions of people in the world or are you the only one?

If you were to leave the earth, could you say you had a good life?

Or did you live your life with regret and end it on bad strife?

Theres always something missing, and it kills to when you can't figure out what.

But to figure out what that is, you gotta walk through life with a strut. 

Hell of a ride

The pain is so intense, the chills are unbearable, the withdrawal is scary.

The  feeling is strange, the emotions are changing, but it all feels good on the contrary. 

Like smoking weed it gets you high.

While your feet are on the floor your heads in the sky.

Like rolling the feeling cant be described, everything is amazing.

But the after affect is hell raising.

Like an emo girl cutting herself, you'd imagine it to hurt. But you dont understand.

The way she feels, she can only show by moving her hands.

Like sex, the hesitation, the pleasure, the feelings, the heat.

The movement of a bodies moving to one beat.

Like smiling everytime you see your lovers face.

Like listening to them breathe and you notice your at the same pace.

Whut the fuck am I talking about?

bliss

Just hold my hand and hold me close. 

Just tell me that your mine and Im the one you want the most. 

Just kiss me gently and make it last.

For we never know what can happen and anything can happen fast.

Tell me what you feel and tell me all your secrets

We can stay up all night and talk while we lay under some blankets

Just hug me for awhile and lets just make each other smile.

Cause I'll go anywhere to feel this feeling I have when Im with you, I'll walk for miles.

We have so much time and theres so much to do

And we can do it all, as long as I am with you.

Hello old friend

I havent seen this in a long time.

But cupid's commiting another crime.

He's stolen my heart again, who knows when I'll get it back.

He's taken it so many times that Ive stop keeping track.

Except his partner in crime, is of a gentler sort.

One who isnt a fake or douchebag in this sport.

He has a secret power, I think he has laser  x-ray vision.

Cause his eyes cut right through me, creating a large incision.

I dont wanna say this hurts me, in fact I cant feel a thing.

But what I can feel is his hand in mine, and something wierd is happening.

This crook has my heart, and I cant say I want it back.

Because I think I want him to have it, this is a proven fact.

His lips touched mine, and there was posion on his tongue.

I felt this exciting sensation that went spiraling through my lung.

They make a perfect team, causing mischief, hope, and dreams.

But Ive fallen for it badly, cause now nothing is what it seems. 

I think I like him, like alot more then I thought.

And now my stomach has butterflies, and my heart is in a knot.

Dad

My dad died when I was 3 years old.

This is the story that I was told.

He died in a car crash because of a drunk driver.

My dad didnt make, but the drunk driver was the survivor.

Why must the good die young? Why didn't I get the chance to meet him?

I want these answers to my questions, but instead my patience wears thin.

I want to remember the time he told me he loved me, I just want him to know.

I love him and I miss him, but how do I let this show.

I feel like crying when fathers day comes to town.

And I get pissed off when people say they hate their dad, when mines not even around.

Atleast you remember your dad,

be the memory good or bad.

Atleast youve seen his face.

I have no one real to fill his place.

I want to hold his hand, I want to look in his eyes.

"Dad I love you and miss you " as she falls to her knees and cries

If your dad left you when you were young, then this poem isnt meant for you

But if you were put in my situation. tell me what you would do.

There is so much more Id like to say, But I'll save it for a later day.

For the anniversary of my dad's death draws near, but until then I'll shed one tear.

Sorry :/

I don't mean to hurt you, it just sort of happens

I can try to clean up my mess, by using your heart as a napkin.

I tried to make you smile, I tried to make you mine.

But at the same time you through my hard work in my face, and I ended up wasting my time.

The constant fighting and the constant doubt.

We went through all this and we aren't even going out.

I'm not gonna lie, the blame should be shared.

But I'm not gonna lie,  I do love you and that I've always cared.

I guess we should start over, or just move on and forget.

But we cant be together now, for I'm just not feeling it.

We weren't together long

But we both were always strong.

This poem could be our love song

That one day we could both sing along.

u lose

THE GAME!!! 

DID YOU JUST LOSE? ;P

EMOtional girl

She seems to be awake in the darkest part of night.

You hear her crying and dare to ask if she is alright.

You turn the light on and look at her face

her make up is running and shes stuck in a sad place

Slits on  her wrists, scars on her neck, bruises on her ribs.

She cries louder then a baby awake in their crib.

You can hear her pain and feel her skin.

She is tired of living in the world, her patience wears thin.

What could cause a girl to feel so much pain? Was it something someone said?

Shes tired of living. She wants to be dead.

Sick of trying, tired of crying. 

Yeah she's smiling but inside she's dying.

Dark clothing, dark music, dark emotions.

Up and down emotions that flow like the ocean. 

You want to hold her and tell her your there.

But she's heard it all before and she no longer cares.

Your scared of what will happen next, she's an amazing person inside

She's dying in a deep dark hell, where she only wants to be alive.

Until then she bleeds

Tired of what she sees

Take away the pain she pleads

as she falls onto her knees.

You thought reading war and peace was hard. Try reading me

I'll send you a smile, I'll give you a wink.

But Im gonna make things challenging, Im gonna make you think.

We can hug, we can hold hands, we can even kiss.

But Im not letting you have me that easily, Your gonna have to be like this:

Your gonna text me, better yet even call.

Your gonna take me out to movies, your gonna take me to the mall.

Your gonna show me affection, I dont care what your frends thnk.

But if you think I'm kidding, I'll be gone in a blink.

Your gonna hold my hand and smile at my lame joke.

Your gonna think Im twice as cute when I burp or even choke. 

You cant win our fights, cause I will just walk away.

Cause baby this isnt burger king, you cant have it your way.
 

I can get a bit bitchy,  I wont reply to your text.

Your gonna have to wait til tomarrow where you'll have to wait and see what happens next. 

If I believe I was in the wrong, Ill grow a pair and say Im sorry

I'll drop it like a bad habit, It will be the end of that story.

Im self diagnosing myself bipolar but my zodiac sign is a Gemini

Im warning you I'll try to kill you, I'll be happy, and then want to cry.

Our relationship will get rocky, we may even brake up.

But the next day it will be better, and were ready to make up.

We are definitely gonna have fun, laugh, and smile all day.

Cause anytime we feel this together,It was always meant to be this way

Im new to the dating game, Im new to relationships.

But I only got one question, do you think you can handle this? ;)  

I wanna know what love is. I want you to show me

~Original Poem~

We're in high school and we tend not to know much.

But why do boys get erections just from the softest touch?

Why do you smile when your away from your boyfriend and laugh so hard you can barely stand.

And when your boyfriend's around you, you dont want to hold his hand.

Why are you sore, why wont you smile?

Why are you saying he loves you, when your clearly in denial.

I heard you've dated for months and you believe that shes the one for you.

But why are you acting so cocky when you made her do something she didnt want to?

Why are you in a relationship if you just flirt with other whores?

Why do you say you are sorry if you've done this all before?

I hope you know your 18 and I know you can get real wild.

But sweetie your girlfriend is 14, she's still basically a child.

Your beautiful, smart, skinny, your hardly known to be mean.

But why are you dressing like a slut and showing things that shouldn't be seen?

Your a heartbreaker, a whore, a nicer name a flirt.

But why would you say meaningful words if they're lies and someones gonna end up hurt?

Why did you slap her because she figured out you were lying?

I hope you know she slits her wrists and is in the corner crying?

Why did you have sex because you think your in love?

Why is she now pregnant where she she used to be a graceful dove?

For those couples who have never fight, who cheated, lied, or hurt.

I hope you know your persons special and you know how much they're worth.

Wow...like seriously?

~Original poem~

Your a senior, your on the football team, I guess your considered cool.

But how dumb do you think I am to let you make me look like a fool.

I know how your mind thinks and I know what your up to.

But I refused to be like others girls and sext is just not what I do. 

You text me and ask "wats up" and I could ask you the same.

But when I tell you how I'm feeling, you think its just a silly game.

It's weird cause I used to like you, I wish we could go back to last year.

We used to be so close, and now I can't stand to be near.

I guess if you said you were sorry,  I guess could just let this go.

But it turns out your just a loser and that this is something you should know. 

Don't text me after practice. Don't call me when your about to sleep.

Cause I won't send you a reply. I won't even say a peep.

I can't tell you who this is about, cause this guy attends my school.

But I hope that if this happens to you, you know the guy is just a tool.

So theres these guys

~This is an original poem~

While I still have your sweater, you still have my heart.

When you give me a hug, just know I never want us apart.

When you text me and call , I stand far back and try to read your signs

You ask me what im thinking,  your always on my mind.

I want to tell you I love you cause this is how I feel

I know you have a hard time believing, but let me tell you this is real.

I see you from afar but I want you to be close

I want to tell you I need you cause your the one I want the most

 We just started to talk, and got to know each other more.

But when we talk in person, my heart just hits the floor.

But I'll sit back and take it slow, I dont want us to rush.

I just hope that after you read this, you know that I'm your crush.

~This is my first blog post...I hope it was ok

But this is the begining of my story, for now its all I have to say~